Sunday, February 28, 2010

Pissing into the wind

Every once in a while the self-doubt gets overwhelming, and it feels like everything I do is futile.  Why do I write, create, try?  It seems that I put things out there to a world that doesn't want them.

It's so easy not to.  To quote Wicked (sorry about that), "those who don't try never look foolish."  So why do I keep trying?

Anyway, today is a big old self-doubt day.  However, I'm going to "beast through it," as my trainer frequently exhorts me to do when we're working out.

Maybe no one gives a fuck about what I write.  Fine.  I'm still going to write it.  And while I feel like I'm not getting any validation right now, that's just my self-doubt talking.  When I'm in a better place, I won't feel this way.

2 comments:

Gil said...

You know, I have failed at just about everything I've ever done, technically, but I just keep going and acting as if what I do and say matters. That sort of attitude tends to get more attention, although I don't necessarily crave attention. There was a very interesting discussion on this theme (although subtle) on an old "Mad Men" I watched last night with Rob.

Tuna Girl said...

Oh, me too! I feel like I've failed at everything I've ever tried too. Seriously. But I bet you don't look at me and think, "failure!" (Or at least I hope you don't.)

Just fake it until you make it. You'll feel better soon.